i can't stop shaking.

i miss you. i miss you so much. i can't stop thinking about you. i can't stop shaking. i can't stop crying. i need to see your smile, i need to be in your arms, to hear your voice, to hear your laugh. i can't concentrate. i haven't heard from you, and all i want to do is jump in your arms and tell you im sorry. this morning i waited for your text saying "goodmorning beautiful", but it never came, and i couldn't get passed that you're gone. some girl is going to be really lucky one day, just keep me in your mind, please.  you told me you didn't love, that you weren't ready for that. i'm okay with that. the day we fought, just on the way over i realized that we're only kids. we have our whole lives ahead of us, so why rush it? you were and still are right. you always have been. i'm sorry. 


date tonight with guthrie. she's taking me to a train trussle so we can talk and catch up. god i hate having bestfriends older than me and never seeing them.

i just wanna leave and not come back.
thank god for germany in 3 weeks.