i miss those goodnight texts.

wow, i haven't written in about a week. here's whats been going on in ol madtown.

my great grandmother passed away and i had to go alabama for the funeral last wednesday. not cool. come home and our cable and internet is out.. thanks suntrust. so thanksgiving was really good though. it was nice to eat my face out. haha.  but the rest of the weekend sucked.. i just can't even describe it. it's been filled with pain, tears, fights, puke, 36 hours of sleep.. ugh.

although so much has gone on i dont really know what to say.. so i'm gonna let these words do the talking..

We touch, I feel a rush, we clutch, it isn't much
But it's enough to make me wonder what's in store for us
It's lust, it's torturous, you must be a sorcerous
Cause you just, did the impossible, gained my trust
Don't play games it'll be dangerous if you fuck me over
Cause if I get burnt, I'ma show ya what it's like to hurt
Cause I've been treated like dirt befo' ya
And love is "evol", spell it backwards, I'll show ya

Nobody knows me, I'm cold, walk down this road all alone
It's no one's fault but my own, it's the path I've chosen to go
Frozen as snow, I show no emotion what'so ever, so
Don't ask me why I have no love for these mo'fuckin' hoes

Blood-suckin' succubuses, what the fuck is up with this?
I've tried in this department, but, I ain't had no luck with this
It sucks but it's exactly what I thought it would be like tryin' to start over
I've got a hole in my heart from some kind of emotional roller-coasta';
Somethin' I won't go on till you toy with my emotions, so it's over
It's like an explosion every time I hold ya, wasn't jokin' when I told ya
You take my breath away, you're a supernova.

I miss those blue eyes, the way you kissed me at night. I miss the way we sleep, like there's no sunrise, like the taste of your smile, i miss the way we breathe. 

Cause when it's going good, It's going great, I'm Superman with the wind in his bag she's Lois Lane, but when it's bad it's awful I feel so ashamed.

I do remember the swing of your step
The life of the party, you're showing off again
And I'd roll my eyes and then you'd pull me in
I'm not much for dancing, but for you I did
Because I love your handshake, meeting my father
I love how you walk with your hands in your pockets
How you'd kiss me when I was in the middle of saying something
There's not a day I don't miss those rude interruptions 

And I'll go sit on the floor
Wearing your clothes
All that I know is I don't know
How to be something you miss
I never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips